I still find myself listening to Westlife over and over again.. Their songs are boyband-ish but not that cheesy like the Backstreet Boys.. So amazing.

Let's summarize what happened today before I rant.

Exercise during Math. Composition again in Filipino. Lesson during Socsci. Quiz during Stat. Lesson during Bio. Absolute boredom while waiting for the acting workshop.

I was quite starstruck when I met Ms. Mia Gutierrez since she got to work with Laurice Guillen, Lino Brocka, JOHN LLOYD CRUZ! Hahaha. I got a lot of substantial stuff from the workshop like if you can't act sad, don't force yourself since it's gonna be obvious anyway. We had this really fun exercise about memory recalling and I pretty much made a fool out of myself. We were made to act out as if we were with someone we loved and uhm, I chose Wonbin out of nowhere (hahaha) then suddenly we were made to imagine that that loved one was in a coffin, dead. I tried thinking that Wonbin as in a coffin, lying in there as a dead corpse but then, I didn't feel any sadness or anything. I was like, "Okay he's dead what a loss now what?". Well I tried imagining my mom or my dad or some of my friends inside the coffin but it still won't work. I tried doing that before but that was during my "emo" moments. Apparently during that time, I still had some sugar rush in my system due to the two donuts I ate for this day. So when we were asked on what we felt during that exercise, I just told them that I imagined myself with some Korean superstar and didn't feel even a bit of remorse when he lay inside the coffin. Yeah I chose the wrong person so next time I try to cry, I'd better think of someone close to me.

My current state right now is that constant cycle of hating myself for no reason. I have a million reasons to hate myself but I just couldn't say what those reasons are because I'm unsure, lost, unstable..? The fibers in my mind are tangled up in a million knots that are hard to untie. Gah, I need some peace of mind.

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UPDATE ON THE RAMAYANA PLAY.

Auditions will be held for the roles of Rama (the male lead), Sita (the female lead), Ravana (the main villain), Hanuman (supporting role) and Lakshamana (supporting role). Those who won't pass the audition would get other supporting roles.

AND! We need some guys to choreograph the fight scenes, and 7 script writers.

Dunno when the auditions will be held. Hopefully there would be time since the defense is next week. Then there's Sci-Camp. Maybe the auditions could be on Thursday next week. Hopefully. Just before exam week. Then practices would start maybe.. After exam week.

Wtf I'm not even the official director. HAHAHA.

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What did I eat today..

Breakfast - bread and 2 donuts
Recess - Apples
Lunch - Shrimps and rice
Recess - NONE.
Merienda - Penoy and kwek kwek
Dinner - Miso soup and Nesvita

Finally no more donuts here. I could cut off the sugar.

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I'm getting a massage tomorrow after watching Topet and Joey play at Fourplay. HAHAHA. Going with Ate Danica, Hannah and the others. :D

Another brush of good luck for the day!

I almost got late for class today, again. A while ago, when I was in the covered pathwalk on my way to class, the guard called me telling me that I was late but in the end, he let me go. I observed that there were a lot who were already running but, seriously, what's the use in running if you're late? Even if you run, you're still late. It makes no big difference at all. Hahaha anyway, I got dressed for PE and headed to the ABD for class. Good thing I just got there on time! We had the mixed doubles quiz in PE this time and Marvin's my partner. We won the first game against Abbey and Gerwin (I think it was them.. haha) and we lost against Winona and Jesmar. I have no idea what my grade is, but I think it's not that bad.

Chem class was fun. We had 2 lab experiments. One was preparing solutions and the other was something about boiling points and freezing points. The boiling part was easy but making the ice go lower that 0 degrees was HARD. We constantly dumped salt on top of the ice to keep it from freezing. And yes, I got to pass my Chem lab report a while ago. +5 for me! YAAAY!

Health class went by a bit fast. We presented our stress relieving exercise (which was listening to music), and it was really appropriate for that time since a lot were cramming their Math homework. Did you know that listening to soothing music while eating could help in digestion? Lol, I just read it somewhere. Anyway, we discussed about alcoholism during class and I kinda related to this part. Believe it or not, the first time I got "drunk" was when I was 3 years old in Japan. Since then, I started to drink beer and other alcoholic drinks in very small amounts ever since I was around 10 under parental supervision of course. The last time I had a drink was summer last year during my cousin's 13th birthday party (my aunt gave me some ice cold beer and my younger cousins had this face O_O.. lmao). Ever since then, I have been very, very sober. I guess I'd try to invite my dad for a drink. Haha my dad's not into drinking nowadays. I mean, he does drink during social events but he usually drinks in small amounts (like, one glass of whisky). If my dad and I would have a drink, one bottle of beer would do. Maybe we'd share the bottle to keep it safe. I cannot wait till I turn 18! Ah, the beauty of legality.

Had a quiz in Math after that. The quiz was easy, but time consuming. That's all I could say.. Hahaha.

Socsci class was funny since we did our radio drama thing. Angel and I did Martin Luther. I noticed that the guys did Queen Mary, and other women while the girls did Luther, Desiderius Erasmus, etc. I was really amused by JM's portrayal of Queen Mary with the matching evil laugh. And.. I remember Winona and Edsel portraying King Henry VIII and they said, "OMG Anne Boleyn is SO HOT!" "She has a body like a sand timer (or, hourglass)!". Okaaay classmates gone wild yo!

Research was okay? Hahaha. Ma'am Daryl scheduled us already for our defense and we're the first ones on Wednesday next week. I have no idea when my groupmates and I will practice our oral defense but, I do hope everything goes great. HOPEFULLY. My grades in Research are berserk so I need to catch up. I hope that our final proposal gets a good grade so we could at least redeem our grades.

After classes, I bummed around in school, doing nothing. Got down at Assumption from the carpool, got home, ate dinner, and I'm here now.

OOOOOH. I HAVE SOMETHING TO SHARE!

Yesterday, my dad arrived from Manila right? He told me that he saw some really affordable laptops and he's considering on getting me one. But, my dad told me that he's still watching out if there are gonna be new features and all so he told me to wait until next year. Oh sure, it pays to wait! GAAAAH I cannot wait for my laptop.. That is if I'd really get one.

And I finally have a solution to me not having a digicam during my prom. I'd just borrow my dad's cellphone since it has a really good camera and yeah, my dad already allowed me to borrow it. :D Yipeeeee.

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What did I eat today..

Breakfast - Rice and crabstick omelette
Recess - Apples
Lunch - Pork with rice
Recess - Cream-O and apples
Merienda - Kwek kwek and penoy
Dinner - Pesto with goat cheese

I ate a lot. Darn. I feel sluggish.

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Try listening to Westlife when trying to relax. It works. :) ACTING WORKSHOP TOMORROW!