It's weird why I chose to change my layout into a Hello Kitty one. Hay, the memories of my childhood and Happy Meals in McDonald's. Lol.

It feels sooooo nice that exams are finally over. I could stop worrying about passing Statistics or Bio. But I'm expecting that next week will be hectic since the seniors in my subcamp asked me to help out with the costumes of the dancers. That means, I'd be uhm.. sewing clothes. And I'm expecting that our research proposal will be returned to us next week for further revision. Looks like the stress isn't over yet. It's just, lessened and less "pressurized" (wtf?).

Let's talk about the exams.

Statistics was, duh.. Not easy, not hard but I'm not expecting a good grade. I already accept the fact that I suck at Stat and I'm not really bothered by it. Either way, I'm expecting that my grade this quarter will be lower.

English was okay, but time consuming. Not expecting a good grade either.

Comsci was easy, but time consuming as well. After passing my exam paper, it was like WHEW. A jolt of relief up my spine.

I ate lunch at the classroom with Grace and the others and Angel and I prepared for the auditions. The auditions was really entertaining to us. It was supposed to be us crew members who will be in the audition venue but it ended up that more than half of the batch was inside to watch as well. I won't spill important stuff but we chosen the people who will play SOME roles and SOME roles would need callbacks. Hopefully, we would have the complete list of the cast on Wednesday so that we could start practicing already.

Here are some highlights of the audition:

- When the audition for Kaikeyi (the "mean girl" queen.. haha) was being held, the others knelt down infront of the king but Grace stood out since she was the only one who sat on the desk.
- Sam's audition as Mareecha was just, DAMN. Really good. I love his evil laugh! Sent goosebumps down my spine..
- Arvee's absolute joy when she auditioned for Mareecha. To those who watched, you know why. Hahaha I KNOW YOU SAW ARVEE'S FACE THEN! LOL.
- JVC and Joshua's audition as Ravana. JVC was a lot like the Joker (damn why the hell did Heath Ledger die?!) and it was really, really spooky. Joshua has potential, but I bet he was distracted since Jihad and the other dudes were watching outside.
- THE AUDITIONS FOR RAMA. Jesmar did good since he was comfortable acting with Che. Joshua has potential but he was distracted by the other people outside. Alfred's audition was really hilarious since he auditioned as Rama SPEAKING BISAYA.
- The auditions for Sita in general. We required those auditioning to sing then suddenly act crazy. All of them did great. Hahaha Maxine wasn't acting, it was just like uhm.. It's acting natural as she said. I agree! Hahaha. Peace Max. :) But yeah, all of them did great. Fati's was really creative since she said that the song is really original but then she suddenly sang the National Anthem. Wow. Hahaha.
- What Arvee said during Darlene's audition as Mareecha. YOU ALL KNOW WHAT HAPPENED. ;)

Now even if I said some of my opinions here, it doesn't mean that they're the ones most likely to be chosen. I just stated those auditions up there since it just really amused me. Just wait for the final list on Wednesday, hopefully. Ok? Hahaha.

After the auditions, heard the First Friday mass then went to the subcamp meeting. After that, my carpoolmates and I went to Kopi Roti. I still owe Mikko twenty pesos. Waaaah. Anyway, I ate a Kopi Bun and drank Ice Kopi Jelly. What a great way to reward myself after exams.

Did I mention that my final grade in Bio is 1.25? ALLELUIA THANK YOU LORD!!! Anyway.

I got down at Assumption then walked towards Holiday. I got a haircut and I'm pretty glad with my haircut since my hair finally looks neater and not unkempt. Hahaha I look like a five year old with my haircut. Wanna see it?





See? Told ya. But whatever. I'm gonna let my hair grow until prom season. Hope it gets long enough.

I miss being vain. I miss my cellphone that died on me. Nokia hasn't sent any feedback on how my darling cellphone's current status. I hope it gets fixed soon, and I hope that Smart gives nice cellphones for free. 18 MONTHS TOMORROW! Wohoo. I could finally get my retention!

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Nine days left.

And I better learn how to greet people on their birthdays here. So, Happy Birthday to Alfred Abella and Cher Tuazon! :)

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..WHERE THE HELL WILL I GET A FROG SKELETON?! TABANGI BEEEEH.

It's my 60th post and it's ten days till my birthday.

The Bio exam was way way easier compared to last quarter. I still don't get why there were kinds of leukocytes included there.. Anyway, I'm not expecting anything amazing.

Filipino was okay I guess.

PE and Health was like, damn. PE had me thinking way more than the Bio exam. Health was okay but PE, yeah sure. I like sports but I'm not a good referee. Boo at me.

Math wasn't hard, you just needed to squeeze some extra juice out of your brain. Had some attacks of mild to medium mental block and I got most of the answers correctly. I'm not expecting a 1.00 in Math anymore.

Got home early and studied for Stat. I kinda bitched around again since some freshman sent a group message and I got real pissed off so I sent a group message back and she just kept on apologizing to me. At least now she's kinda guilty of what she done. No major harm done there but, gawd those group messages are CHAIN LETTERS and highly useless. It's okay to send a GM like, "Powerpoints for Bio here.." and the like. But chain letters? I might chain someone instead. I know it was wrong for me to be brash and rude but I just had enough. I know I disturbed some people (since my YM list is very very unorganized) and I'm really sorry about that. Anyway, Liana already told me that she told some other freshman to stop sending GMs since it's was getting annoying. Thanks Liana! :)

So it's Stat, English and Comsci (BURNNNN) for me tomorrow. Better start with English, NOW. And Ramayana auditions tomorrow. So people involved, be there and be prepared. Hahahaha.

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Ten days. Ten days. Ten days.

I still find myself listening to Westlife over and over again.. Their songs are boyband-ish but not that cheesy like the Backstreet Boys.. So amazing.

Let's summarize what happened today before I rant.

Exercise during Math. Composition again in Filipino. Lesson during Socsci. Quiz during Stat. Lesson during Bio. Absolute boredom while waiting for the acting workshop.

I was quite starstruck when I met Ms. Mia Gutierrez since she got to work with Laurice Guillen, Lino Brocka, JOHN LLOYD CRUZ! Hahaha. I got a lot of substantial stuff from the workshop like if you can't act sad, don't force yourself since it's gonna be obvious anyway. We had this really fun exercise about memory recalling and I pretty much made a fool out of myself. We were made to act out as if we were with someone we loved and uhm, I chose Wonbin out of nowhere (hahaha) then suddenly we were made to imagine that that loved one was in a coffin, dead. I tried thinking that Wonbin as in a coffin, lying in there as a dead corpse but then, I didn't feel any sadness or anything. I was like, "Okay he's dead what a loss now what?". Well I tried imagining my mom or my dad or some of my friends inside the coffin but it still won't work. I tried doing that before but that was during my "emo" moments. Apparently during that time, I still had some sugar rush in my system due to the two donuts I ate for this day. So when we were asked on what we felt during that exercise, I just told them that I imagined myself with some Korean superstar and didn't feel even a bit of remorse when he lay inside the coffin. Yeah I chose the wrong person so next time I try to cry, I'd better think of someone close to me.

My current state right now is that constant cycle of hating myself for no reason. I have a million reasons to hate myself but I just couldn't say what those reasons are because I'm unsure, lost, unstable..? The fibers in my mind are tangled up in a million knots that are hard to untie. Gah, I need some peace of mind.

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UPDATE ON THE RAMAYANA PLAY.

Auditions will be held for the roles of Rama (the male lead), Sita (the female lead), Ravana (the main villain), Hanuman (supporting role) and Lakshamana (supporting role). Those who won't pass the audition would get other supporting roles.

AND! We need some guys to choreograph the fight scenes, and 7 script writers.

Dunno when the auditions will be held. Hopefully there would be time since the defense is next week. Then there's Sci-Camp. Maybe the auditions could be on Thursday next week. Hopefully. Just before exam week. Then practices would start maybe.. After exam week.

Wtf I'm not even the official director. HAHAHA.

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What did I eat today..

Breakfast - bread and 2 donuts
Recess - Apples
Lunch - Shrimps and rice
Recess - NONE.
Merienda - Penoy and kwek kwek
Dinner - Miso soup and Nesvita

Finally no more donuts here. I could cut off the sugar.

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I'm getting a massage tomorrow after watching Topet and Joey play at Fourplay. HAHAHA. Going with Ate Danica, Hannah and the others. :D

Finally done with the Chem lab report.. And waiting for dad to come back from the airport.

Today has been a mix of good luck and bad luck for me. I almost got late for school (along with Earv, Alron and Chris), but I got there on time for the Bio lab activity. We had a urinalysis and uhm, it was funny. Marvin "donated" his urine for our experiment and that meant he would clean the test tubes, since it's his pee. Anyway, we were supposed to test if Marvin's pee had hippuric acid crystals, glucose, albumin and bile. After experimenting, Marvin's pee only had a small amount of glucose which meant he's perfectly healthy. AND YES. Ma'am Tenchavez told us that the +5 in lab reports will only be given if EVERYONE IN THE CLASS passes on the due date. It worked for us back in 2nd year, so I hope it works this time. But that policy would be implemented next quarter.. Hahaha.

Filipino is still a struggle for me as ever. I ended up eating during class and yep, my teacher saw me and I think it's gonna pull my class participation grade down. My grades in Filipino right now have been going down the drain, and same goes to most of my classmates. Hopefully, Ma'am Ines would lower the number of items in the quizzes so I still have hopes in maintaining my grade.. I'm expecting that my Research grade will crash like a plane in a corn field.

HAH! Physics was double period so we had an exercise and a bit of discussion. After being spoon fed by Sir Noel for the nth time, I get the answers correctly now. As a matter of fact, I'm getting the hang of it already and all I need to do is to list down all the formulas I need and all the conditions. I just wish that Sir Noel will cut down the items on that 35 point quiz since I got 20/35 (which is one point from passing..) because I didn't have enough time to finish the quiz. Grar, Physics. Hahaha.

Chem made my light up a bit. COMPUTATIONS ARE BACK! And not much concepts anymore. Well, there still are concepts and stuff to explain but computations are back on the road. I asked Ma'am Gigi if she'd give us bonus exercises and quizzes, and I forgot what she said. BUT, I hope she does.

Math never fails to amuse me, as long as it doesn't involve proving stuff using theorems and the like. I thought that proving in Trigonometry was like proving in Geometry but proving in Trigo is kinda like, proving algebraically, which I highly prefer. I haven't done my math homework so.. I'll do it later.

SPEAKING OF MATH. I found out a while ago that I am a candidate for the Math proficiency award in graduation but I was already eliminated because of my stinking 1.75 in Geometry last year. My grade in Math 1 was 1.5, 1.75 in Geom and 1.25 in Algebra. The grades must not go lower than 1.50 so that I could qualify. I know it hurts that I got eliminated BUT, I can't blame myself either. I suck at Geometry, especially the proving bit. I still have hope in Chemistry, Biology, Socsci and English! I STILL DO! I wish.

Anyway, English class was next and we had a quiz on what happened in the story, Tribal Scars. The story was a bit dragging at the start but it began to spark some interest in me when it came near the ending. It was a very good story and the reason for having tribal scars was very realistic. I know some tribes in Africa have tribal scars since they have this ritual for a boy's coming of age where the boy's sisters ask the other older guys to whip them thus causing scars. But in the story, the tribal scars were created so as the Africans wouldn't be captured for slavery (since the Whites rejected the Africans with blemishes on their body). Cool huh? Also, Ma'am Annie showed to the class our drawings on the main highlight of the story. Some were colorful, some were morbid. Aside from that, we were made to write in our learning log on what we would dare to do once we graduate from Pisay. I said that I'd get more ear piercings and I'd get a tattoo, most probably.

I also got to talk to Ma'am Annie about the Ramayana thing. Well, I'm volunteering myself to be the director and Angel wants to help out so, maybe we could be the DIRECTORS. Hahaha someone to share the fun and stress with. Anyway, Angel and I were planning on having a batch meeting concerning this so that we could assign committees for the props, costume, lights, music and dance, etc. Also, we are planning to hold the auditions for the parts in the play. I'm still gonna research on who are the characters in the story. I hope that we have enough batchmates who are willing to act and all. HAHAHA I'M SO EXCITED FOR THE PLAY!

After school, went to SM, bought something at NBS, took a taxi home, did my Chem lab report, took a bath, ate dinner, and now my dad just gave me my dry fit shirt that he bought for me in Manila. YESSSS! Another dry fit shirt! I already have one from Nike, and this new one's from Adidas. Cool, cool. Next up: YONEX! If I have extra cash..

Speaking of cash, I know everyone's heard of the bankruptcy of the Lehman Brothers in the USA. Well, one bank that's affected is BDO and uhm, I keep my savings there. I admit that I kinda have a big amount of savings there so I'm so scared of losing my cash. So, my mom told me that we're gonna get all my cash and we're gonna move it to BPI. Great, so when are we gonna do it? Hopefully, TOMORROW. Or as soon as possible.

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What did I eat today..

Breakfast - Penne
Recess - Apples
Lunch - Adobo with rice and Gatorade
Recess - An apple and cookies
At the mall - a brownie
Dinner - Penne

Shoot. I ate too much. That's the bad effect when our maid forgets to pack some water in my lunch bag. Water, is, a, MUST.

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Finally got home from a looooong day in school.

I'm glad to announce to the whole wide world that my dear groupmates and I managed to cram our full research proposal in less than an hour. Hopefully by now Ma'am Daryl's reading our paper.. Hahaha. Now that's over, I could finally have some sleep since I'm over with my Math homework. I guess this sums up my day today, eh?

Oh wait. There's more.

During English class, Ma'am Annie told us that the WHOLE BATCH will present the Indian epic, 'Ramayana' in the 2nd Card Giving Day. I was quite skeptical why 90 people would be involved if the only characters are.. Rama.. Sita.. and the monkey. But Ma'am Annie pointed out that we need a big crew. A big crew means lots of people to make the costumes, props, setting, everything on stage. Angel told me that she wanted to direct the play and I said that I wanted to be in charge of the costumes and make-up (hahaha I usually do the make up on my batchmates that present dances in school.. that includes the guys!). It would be really cool to do the make up on the characters of Ramayana since I get to play with black eyeliner a lot, and I get to be creative and stuff. I plan to try out those make up tricks I see in high fashion magazines. Also, Ma'am Annie said that the guy who will play Rama MUST be dark skinned. So dark skinned male Juniors, get ready!

Also, we had this activity in which we wrote our names in a piece of paper then we'd pass the paper around. Then, people would write what they think of you. Here are some of the comments I got often..

and yes, the ever perpetual..

• FAT.