I still find myself listening to Westlife over and over again.. Their songs are boyband-ish but not that cheesy like the Backstreet Boys.. So amazing.

Let's summarize what happened today before I rant.

Exercise during Math. Composition again in Filipino. Lesson during Socsci. Quiz during Stat. Lesson during Bio. Absolute boredom while waiting for the acting workshop.

I was quite starstruck when I met Ms. Mia Gutierrez since she got to work with Laurice Guillen, Lino Brocka, JOHN LLOYD CRUZ! Hahaha. I got a lot of substantial stuff from the workshop like if you can't act sad, don't force yourself since it's gonna be obvious anyway. We had this really fun exercise about memory recalling and I pretty much made a fool out of myself. We were made to act out as if we were with someone we loved and uhm, I chose Wonbin out of nowhere (hahaha) then suddenly we were made to imagine that that loved one was in a coffin, dead. I tried thinking that Wonbin as in a coffin, lying in there as a dead corpse but then, I didn't feel any sadness or anything. I was like, "Okay he's dead what a loss now what?". Well I tried imagining my mom or my dad or some of my friends inside the coffin but it still won't work. I tried doing that before but that was during my "emo" moments. Apparently during that time, I still had some sugar rush in my system due to the two donuts I ate for this day. So when we were asked on what we felt during that exercise, I just told them that I imagined myself with some Korean superstar and didn't feel even a bit of remorse when he lay inside the coffin. Yeah I chose the wrong person so next time I try to cry, I'd better think of someone close to me.

My current state right now is that constant cycle of hating myself for no reason. I have a million reasons to hate myself but I just couldn't say what those reasons are because I'm unsure, lost, unstable..? The fibers in my mind are tangled up in a million knots that are hard to untie. Gah, I need some peace of mind.

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UPDATE ON THE RAMAYANA PLAY.

Auditions will be held for the roles of Rama (the male lead), Sita (the female lead), Ravana (the main villain), Hanuman (supporting role) and Lakshamana (supporting role). Those who won't pass the audition would get other supporting roles.

AND! We need some guys to choreograph the fight scenes, and 7 script writers.

Dunno when the auditions will be held. Hopefully there would be time since the defense is next week. Then there's Sci-Camp. Maybe the auditions could be on Thursday next week. Hopefully. Just before exam week. Then practices would start maybe.. After exam week.

Wtf I'm not even the official director. HAHAHA.

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What did I eat today..

Breakfast - bread and 2 donuts
Recess - Apples
Lunch - Shrimps and rice
Recess - NONE.
Merienda - Penoy and kwek kwek
Dinner - Miso soup and Nesvita

Finally no more donuts here. I could cut off the sugar.

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I'm getting a massage tomorrow after watching Topet and Joey play at Fourplay. HAHAHA. Going with Ate Danica, Hannah and the others. :D