Back from a tiring but productive day. Hahaha.

I got up at around 6am even if I intended to get up at around, 8? Then I ate breakfast then went out for a walk. After walking, hot-oiled my hair, took a bath then set off to Amarillo's meeting at Kuya Dax's house. I went to McDonald's at Damosa since Ate Therese told me that they were there and I was thinking that there were other people from different year levels there. So I came and I noticed that I was the only junior there. Hahaha so awkward. So after that, Ate Weslene, Kuya Dax, Ate Therese and I walked to his house on the other side of the road. When I got there, I saw Michael and mingled with the freshmen namely Jonah, Noree and Aimee. :)

I went there because I'm part of the group that's gonna make the costume and I'm glad that we accomplished something. As a matter of fact, Michael and I are going to NCCC Uyanguren to buy cloth for the costumes. Hopefully I'd be done making the two important costumes by Tuesday night so that I could make final adjustments on Wednesday. Gaaah I'm so excited to make the costume! I'm planning to start tomorrow. Lmao.

After planning, I talked a lot with the Seniors about stuff that they knew, and about stuff that I knew. It's really hard to keep secrets in Pisay since everyone knows everyone. Hahaha I was just really amazed. I bet they were amazed when I told them that I knew what happened to this person when they were in this year and in this section. And I'm pretty sure that they know stuff about my batch as well. That's life, we coexist. In the near future that coexistence could lead to massive camaraderie when we get to college.

We ate lunch there as well and the only thing I ate was rice and menudo. Come on, I hardly eat menudo! The food was really good, and I was full enough to keep my going in badminton training. My dad told me that he'd fetch me by 2pm so I left already.. By the way, Kuya Dax! Thanks for the food! Forgot to thank you a while ago. >.< I got to Holiday and I was Ate Dan, Darlene, Hannah, Topet and the others there. I was talking to them then suddenly Angel came out of nowhere. HAHAHA I just reacted normal (like duh, I see Angel in class everyday.. lol). I bet they were expecting that I'd have an "ATE DANICA" reaction when I saw Angel since it's been a long time since she trained. And yes! Earvin (not Earvin Go) is back in action! Finally someone to fight with.. Hahaha. Kidding, kidding. Training was okay I guess. I think we won in all the games we played.. I'm not sure. I guess I'm too damn lazy to tell stories today.. Tournament next week! And I'd be missing Ramayana practice. T_T Oh well.. At least there's food!

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People responded to my provocative blog entry in Multiply last night.. Yay!

Uh yeah you can't read any of the comments there but generally, it says that I'm not alone in feeling that way and the like. If you're curious what my blog said, here it is:

It's been a long time since I blogged here. I just thought about it after revamping my almost dysfunctional Multiply page.

Junior life. As of now, we have 17 months to go to graduation. Anyone excited?

Guess what. I'm kinda excited.

I just cannot stand my life as a Junior sometimes. It's been an emotional rollecoaster for me ever since classes have started. I don't know if me being emotional is brought about by stress, but it could be a factor. Anyway, I noticed that my social life has been from up there to down there. I haven't been interacting that much with people. I usually choose to sit down and listen to my iPod while staring at nothing. If I do start to interact with people, I usually end up being out of place. I'm pretty sure that I'm out of place since I couldn't relate to the topic or anything. I'm usually left out when it comes to TV shows, music, and other things. I don't usually go out with friends that much since I'm preoccupied with badminton on weekends. I could skip badminton once in a while. The thing is, no one really asks me to come.

I don't blame anyone. I know I am a boring person.

Sometimes I wanna get mad at some people but I can't. Why? The good things they have done to me overshadows my anger towards them. One day I'm mad, the next day I'm okay. It's useless when I'm mad. It doesn't even matter to anyone.

Thing here is, I'm finding it hard to find someone to trust. I "miss" some of my friends who actually go to the same school as I do. As much as I want to tell them everything that's been bothering me and what's going on, I don't because I know it wouldn't make any sense to them. I'm a person with a deranged mind but still is functional. Ironic, I know.

And now my birthday is in nine days, my wish is simple. I wish that all my loved ones would celebrate my birthday with me because they want to, and not because they are obliged to. If you don't want to come, fine then don't even if it hurts me.

Sorry for being emotional. Just had to get it all out of my chest.

I remember my dad telling me that Librans are hard to read. They won't talk to you for several days then they'll suddenly talk to you. I am like that, seriously. I have these days when I don't like talking to some people because I just don't feel like it even if I have nothing against those people. My personality is similar to weighing scales, just like Libra's symbol. I find it hard to weigh the appropriate intensity of my emotions in some situations. To Librans out there, are you like me in that aspect? Just curious..

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EIGHT DAYS LEFT.