I'm currently experiencing writer's block now. It doesn't feel nice, really.

I have ideas running through my head but it isn't concrete enough to be written in pen and paper. I'm having seconds about passing my story as my English project. Writing a story like what I'm making is tedious work and it takes at least a year to finish and revise it. So, I'm thinking of passing my blog entries starting from October 12 (the day I turn 16, obviously) until the time comes to pass the project. Then maybe as a teaser, I could include fragments of my story, or whatever parts I have compeleted and revised. If I get to finish my story by December or early January, then I'm passing it as my project. But, I'm also considering in taking time in writing my story since hurrying up won't make it really good. I'm trying my best in making this darn story of mine, even if I'm only stuck writing the rising action of the story and the ending. I really, really need a fallback in having a sense of fulfillment in case my research paper doesn't really give me that kind of satisfaction (we're trying our best for it to succeed. RRL, here we come!). So I'll just take one day at a time in writing my story and really, really give my heart into it. I asked Hachi to read some parts that I made and I'm really glad that she liked it. Gaaaah, I know I'll finish this.

I will finish that darn story. I really need to learn how to fulfill the promises I make to myself.

I'll talk about my day today. I got up early since my mom asked me to accompany her when she takes her CT Scan. After that, we went to Paramount to get my blouses and then to NCCC to buy some stuff in the grocery. Then we went home and I went online and joined Twilight Coven PH (Twilight's Philippine Fanbase!). I also made an icon for my avatar using Photoshop and then after that, I left home for training. The people who were there was Angel, Hannah, Darlene, Jp, Jaycon, Paolo, Ate Danica and Joeyboy. I'm glad that Hannah and I got to practice our rotation since we're competing in a tournament in two weeks. After training, my dad and I played a game with Hannah and Kuya Randy. Kuya Randy and my dad were teammates so that Hannah and I could practice more. After that, I got dressed and joined the others in the cafe. I ate some tofu chips and drank C2 while having more chit chat with the people. Did I mention Chia and Che were also there? Hahaha. They went swimming and Che's little bro tagged along. After some chit chat, my dad got dressed after hitting the gym and we went home. I ate dad's special bacon (it's really good!) with rice for dinner and I'm drinking Nesvita to aid my digestion. Meat's hard to digest you know. Do you want me to track it down for ya? Lol. My dad also contacted some companies where I could possible have my internship. It's really weird that my dad knows a lot of people from almost every professional field but it's an advantage to me this time. So far, Mincor already allowed me to intern there. My dad's still contacting BMeg and McSomething, but I really really want to intern in RDL. It's the closest thing I have to cosmetics here. I wanted to intern in Avon but it's in Manila. That's why I wanna take up Chemical Engineering. I want to put up my own cosmetics company, in honor of my darling mother who's fondness of cosmetics (particularly perfumes, body butters and lotions) inspired me to formulate that goal. Another promise to myself. I MUST FULFILL IT!

Now I'm listening to Goodbye by Air Supply. I just loooove this song. I could imagine the part where Edward said goodbye to Bella in New Moon since he was about to leave, and they were in the forest.

I would rather hurt myself
Than to ever make you cry
There's nothing left to say
But... goodbye.